Our second home study

So we have our second home study this Friday. I am so incredibly nervous despite the constant reassurance from friends and family. Actually, this is our third home study appointment. We first met with a woman a couple of weeks ago. She just wasn’t a fit for my personality and my husband agreed. She judged us, made extremely rude comments and tried very hard to tell us all reasons we weren’t ready for this (things like you are too young, not married long enough, not emotionally finished with your miscarriages, yada yada yada). I knew that we would face tough questions but also thought that we would be able to provide our answers. This woman didn’t even let us speak and basically told us to come back in 6 months and if any of you are trying to adopt you know that 6 months is actually an eternity.
I was so upset when we left her house. She made me feel as if the next year or so of trying to adopt was going to be the worst year of our lives (and I know it is going to be tough but she never mentioned anything positive). In a frantic fit, I called my agency the next day and was advised that I could change adoption practitioners. I couldn’t believe what I had heard. It gave me hope all over again. I naively thought that once you had the practitioner, you were stuck but the agency told me that it was up to us who we decided to perform our home study. We should feel completely comfortable and so we changed practitioners.
We met last week with a man whom we both adored. He joked with us, reassured us that this is going to be a hard process but look at what you get at the end of all the torture and he also shared information with us and showed us all of our options in terms of where we would like to adopt from, etc. I am so happy with him. Now that we decided to go with us, our second appointment is on Friday. He is going to come to our home at 8:30 in the morning (which is scary ‘cause I am not the best morning person and my husband definitely is NOT) and he will stay for a few hours. He told us that he is going to check the safety of our home, go over the pile of paper work that we have completed and ask us some fun and some tough questions. Darryl and I have been so busy running around trying to get all our papers in order, completing the homework that he assigned to us last week and trying to clean our house. I know it isn’t supposed to be spotless but since Christmas is just around the corner, our house has been a little messier than usual lately with things shoved in cupboards and spewed across the living room floor.