Waiting

So, I have been obsessed with reading everyone else's blogs. I am crazy interested to see how everyone else did on the plane ride home. I can't imagine this and I know it is really silly but it is the scariest part of the process for me. I know that there really are much more scary things, so why am i obsessing over the plane ride home? I guess it is easier to think of it rather than think of something happening that we will be declined to adopt or get to her and not be able to get her on the plane.

We had our second home study appointment the week before christmas. It went really well. I read a lot about what to expect and the truth is, it was nothing like we had expected. Our practitioner came in, went straight to our kitchen, never wanted a tour of the house, made us feel extrememly comfortable and happy to have him in our home. He asked us so many questions, many of them repeats from the last. He wrote as he spoke and we knew every word that was going into our report. I was so happy when he left that if it was appropriate, i would have hugged that man.

We have our next appointment on Monday. I am not nervous at all. I can't wait because this is the last appointment that we will have and then we will meet with him at which time he will present his entire report.

My friends and family have received their reference requirements. They all seem to be very eager and excited. I can't wait to hear what they all have to say about us. WE received one letter thus far from Darryl's uncle Hector who made me cry each time I read the letter. He was so nice.

We are trying really hard to get all of our paperwork together. There is so much to do though. I received my passport last week and we have received our police check on the same day. I am waiting for our finger print reports, we have our 2nd portion of our physicals scheduled for next Tuesday, and I am about to write the Essay that is required. What do you say in one page? I want to say it all but don't have the room. We have to get our financials in order but not sure how to go about doing that as Darryl is self employed. Plus, we are trying to read as much as possible about adoption so that we can go into this educated and well-prepared. AHHHH... So much to do. Also, we have asked our friends and family to donate stuff to a big garage sale we plan to have in the spring and all the money raised will be donated to the orphanage. That is time consuming which is good because I want to keep all our days busy so that time flys.

I honestly can't wait until this is all done and then we can concentrate on getting her home, chosing a name, decorating her room, researching breast feeding, and living our lives. I know we have a long haul to go, but I know in my heart that this will happen. We have a great practitioner and an amazing support system. I just wish she could be here tomorrow.

We had a really nice Christmas. Lots of family and friends. We were able to spend some time up north and just relax (which is almost foreign to me). New Year's was quiet but nice as well.
Perhaps, by next Christmas she will be here to spoil and love and make all the work of Christmas worth it.