I have been thinking a lot about her Mother.
The one taking care of her right now.
5 months have passed now and so I am SURE our baby is at least 'started'. She is probably the size of a piece of rice right now. She may even have a heart beat. And somewhere, across the world a woman is caring for her, keeping her safe inside her, walking more consciously, choosing the right movements. This woman may know what lays ahead. She may not know. I find this heart wrenching. Across the world, my child is developing, in another woman. I love her, this woman. She will give me what no other has. A gift bigger than any I have ever received.
And she is a stranger.
But, not so much. I feel her. I feel for her too.
Five months of waiting has passed. I am starting to feel this adoption again. I have been so removed from it over the last five months. We have a LOOOOONG way to go. We are feeling good and keeping ourselves busy. Somewhere in the back of my mind and ALWAYS in my heart lay this adoption, my Amara and her 1st Mommy.
And she is a stranger.
But, not so much. I feel her. I feel for her too.
Five months of waiting has passed. I am starting to feel this adoption again. I have been so removed from it over the last five months. We have a LOOOOONG way to go. We are feeling good and keeping ourselves busy. Somewhere in the back of my mind and ALWAYS in my heart lay this adoption, my Amara and her 1st Mommy.
2 comments:
Hi there,
I just stumbled across your blog and just wanted to say Hi! My husband and I brought our AMARA home from Ethiopia about 2 years ago...she's a true and complete joy and the light of our lives.
Good luck with everything!
Becky
you are such a loving person! you and darryl deserve only the best! i pray for you and darryl that this process is speedy and leaves you holding your baby girl!
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