So, it seems.........

That many people besides myself are very excited about this adoption. It sounds logical that Amara's aunts, uncles, grandparents, future friends would be excited and now that I think about it, it seems so obvious. It must be the bubble that surrounds me everyday, leaving me feeling progressively more alone in this process, that made me miss it. The thing is, I think I created that bubble all by myself. The bubble has been my imaginary friend - something I have gripped to throughout this entire adoption journey. But, the type of friend that puts you down when you already are, or makes you question yourself, your chosen path, your being. I was wrong to think that I was alone. The deeper I get into this process, the harder it becomes and the more self absorbed I become. I am making a vow to consider others now in this process because there are a lot of people in my life that have a vested interest in my daughter. It is not all about me.

So, being in the state of mind I have described above, Darryl and I drove to visit my father and his wife (Terry) for a Sunday afternoon tea. Well, tea turned into dinner and an amazing afternoon. The kind of afternoon that happens too infrequently. Terry and Papa moved into a new home a few months ago and are working diligently on the house. Well, they told Darryl and I to go upstairs and see how they finished the spare room and when I walked up the stairs, I could see it already. They made a baby nursery in their home - for Amara and all of their future grandkids. Tears came to my eyes. It was so pretty. I nice little crib with comfy looking sheets, a toy box, a dresser, cute curtains. They painted the walls a pale, baby yellow. It was the sweetest thing.

So, it seems, I am not the only one going through this process. So, it seems, I am not alone. So, it seems, we all have dreams.

So, at 16 weeks of waiting for our referral, Bubble be gone!