I feel it - surrounding me constantly - it is a metamorphosis of sorts. Transforming slowly from enthusiasm, passion, even gusto to a quiet, tangible, skepticism held by those around me. I have watched it happen. No one has told me. No one has said it out loud. But, I can feel it. I can tell by the way they ask, "Any news?". The tone has changed. The eye contact is a little less direct. Perhaps, and most likely, it is my own insecurity. I am probably making it all up in my head because I am slowing tranforming to the negative Nelley's of the world. I can see the change in myself, in my sweet Darryl and now, I think I see it in most surrounding me.
New Poll :Do you think I will end up in the world of motherhood or insanity?
3 comments:
MOTHERHOOD!!!! Always a little insane though hahaha but no more than normal!! Just kidding... we all are!!
Absolutely motherhood. There is every reason to believe that the program will move forward, and at some point the only difference between us, and the people who join the program 2 years from now, will be our jealousy that we were the ones to feel the "new program growing pains"...
Oh Andrea, my heart is breaking for you!!! You will absolutely become a mommy, it's just a matter of time. I'm so sorry it's taking so long -- I know exactly how you feel, though I won't proclaim to know how it feels as a first-time mom to be, but I do know what it's like to have people missing from your family. They will make their way to you soon, and then all the waiting will be worth it. Massive cyberhug!!!
tiffani
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