My Resume

It seems all the skills that I possess are the exact ones that you shouldn't have when adopting. They look great on a resume but don't help when trying to stay calm, cool and collected for this adoption. It seems I don't possess many that are needed.
Here are a few that are not needed:

1) The ability to get shit done - can't do anything here but wait. I have always been able to get the stuff that needs to get done, done. With adoption, this is only a detriment. It just drives me crazy that I can't get my hands in there and finish this adoption the way it should be finished. Nuts, I tell ya, nuts!

2) The ability to control most situations and see through to desired result - Ok, so I am a bit of a control freak. It helps me typically but with adoption this innate quality that I have, works against me. I can't control one second of this process - except, I reckon, my feelings about this situation - did I just say "I reckon"? Instead, it is in the hand of a bunch of people I have never even met and can't control telepathically.

3) The ability to thrive in stressful situations - at first glance this should help me. It is, afterall, a very stressful situation. However, there is NO room to thrive and well that's no good.

4) Problem solving - Lots of problems with adoption - none that I am able to solve.

5) The ability to feel extremes. I have NEVER been a medium kind of person. I have always felt and done things in the extreme. When I love, I love deeply. If I laugh, I laugh hard. When I cry, I cry hard. Never do you catch me in between. Adoption has made me cry, more often than laugh which leaves me crying hard almost every day - and driving my husband nuts in the meantime. One plus is that I am completely, head over heals, in love with our baby without even knowing who she is.

6) Be able to charm (NOT manipulate - CHARM) people into getting in the front of the line at the grocery store or clubs, not pay admission somewhere, taking the last apple pie when they already had it in their hands etc. I know, I should keep this one a secret as it seems selfish but my friends say "it's part of my charm" so there it is and maybe it's Karma but it is not helping me here.

7) The ability to stay awake all night long due to over thinking every detail of every day. Well, this one speaks for itself.

It seems we are quite close folks. We're getting there. Things are moving - slow but sure.

Happy Halloween!